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I put in my side of the effort, make calls, send emails, send text messages… now my task is to wait.  I hate waiting.  Patience is a virtue I generally derive from distraction.  If life requires that I wait, I pour myself into my work and my career, when work requires that I wait, I pursue my life goals.  Right now the both require that I have patience and wait.  I hate waiting.  I check my phone like an addict, hoping for something to respond to.  On the life front I fight off every thought to send a text message knowing that nothing positive will come from me jamming the communication lines.  If it’s truly what I think it is (and what I want) then it will work out.  Not on its own mind you, there is plenty of effort that will be required.  I just need to wait…  On the career side of things it’s much easier, there’s no emotion, it’s just a job that I’m looking for, something that keeps me here for a little while longer, a good distraction.   These people I can call, follow up, send reference contact information.  But it does mean that I check my phone all the time… and have to wait.

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